When I dream, I go to a different place.
Very rarely have I dreamt of a place that I know in the waking world. When my dreams are set in real and familiar surroundings, they're usually nightmares.
I'm often driving, in my dreams, but not on roads that I know or recognise from reality. The roads, woods, cities and fields in my dreams are places that are familiar only because I have dreamt of them before. Some areas I know equally well (or even better) than any place I've ever visited awake.
I used to think that the geography of my dreams was based purely on a distortion of the environment I knew; even though I didn't recognise it, I assumed that my brain was simply transforming familiar places as a stage on which to play my dreams.
But when I moved from Sussex to Yorkshire, I found that the usual geography changed, and I began walking, asleep, down roads I had never seen before. I could not understand where I was.
Over the six years I have lived here, that geography has become more familiar to me, and I find myself losing the shape of the older lands. Only a few things are retained: the huge fallen tree that serves as a bridge; the steep switchbacks leading up to the Ridge; the circling roads with trading tents pitched at the centre.
Now I visit a different dream country. There seem to be more structures in this land - there's a dilapidated house with a rusted tin roof and waterstained floorboards that I visit regularly, and a pub in a clearing of woods called the White Rose (tellingly, the symbol of Yorkshire.) There's a whole city, in fact, whose name I can't ever recall on waking.
What gives me pause here is that when I visit the south, I never dream of my "yorkshire" setting - but I have dreamed instead of my older lands. And conversely, I've never dreamed at home in Yorkshire of my old dream haunts. This apparent division only affects the landscape of my dreaming: the people I meet in dreams are, where known, from any period of my past.
Does the land sleep? Am I the dreamer, or the dream?
- Where Am I?:Carbrook, Sheffield
- Currently feeling:
thoughtful
The speed limit is 40mph, enforced by a fixed camera.
So do you sit in the left-hand lane and crawl at 5mph down the hill until you reach the point where it turns back into one lane - or do you drive down the right-hand lane at 40mph and then merge back into the queue at the bottom, which at the most will take 30 seconds before someone lets you in?
The first method means you will take 6 minutes to travel down the hill, whereas using the right-hand lane will take a maximum of 2 minutes. So why in hell am I the only person, most mornings, using the right-hand lane?
I could understand it if it was drivers who don't normally use that road and weren't sure on the positioning or how far the dual carriageway extends. But this is at rush hour - when probably 85% of drivers are making the same journey every day!
I suppose I shouldn't complain because it means the right-hand lane is blissfully traffic-free and allows me to shave a good 8 minutes off my journey time each way (because this happens at two points on my route.) But it's just...baffling.
- Where Am I?:S9
- Currently feeling:
confused
Although I probably needed the sleep, I could have done without the dream about having a threesome with a female acquaintance... and Michael Barrymore. *shudder*
- Where Am I?:S12
- Currently feeling:
rejuvenated - Currently reading:The Ruby Knight - David Eddings
I've been staring at it, by turns bemused, horrified, amused, suspiscious, back to bemused. Well, just look for yourself.
Peter Pan's Home Page
- Where Am I?:S12
- Currently feeling:
tired - Currently reading:Liquor - Poppy Z Brite
This is an online tool which allows you to upload a portrait which it will then morph into another age, sex or race, or draw you in a few different styles.
Check these out.
My original photo (this works best with a black background by the way):

Transformed as male!
I look amazingly like my uncle Michael:

Granny Kaz!

Mucha-style:

Go play!
- Currently feeling:
amused - Currently reading:A New England - Billy Bragg
I am so fucking bored I am pulling my hair out - and we'll have to do it all again on Monday! The same fucking thing all over! Thank fuck Sheff Utd are playing so they've televised the match throughout the floors, so at least the agents are not slitting their wrists yet, but I can't enjoy football without beer being present, or at least swearing, it's just not right.
I am so bored I clicking on the "random" LJ thingy and ended up on someone called ant_girl who had quite an entertainng style. Then when I checked her userinfo I found she was on my sister's friends list! VERY random... I thought that "6 degrees of separation" thingy was mainly due to some sad people on LJ being complete whores with 57 squintillion friends, but maybe it's divine karma...
God I talk a load of bollocks when I'm bored. Roll on 4.10pm...
- Currently feeling:
bored
- Currently feeling:
scared
So, I was thinking this weekend about how I look my age, or don't.
When I was younger, I looked a lot older. I was getting served in pubs no questions asked at 14. When I was about 20-21, I apparently looked in my late twenties or even early thirties. 2 examples: when I was working for Top Rank, the staff used to run a little competition when we had new starters, on "Guess how old Karen is". Nobody was ever within 5 years. (At least it wasn't "Guess how much Kaz weighs", haha.) The second occasion happened on Paul's 29th birthday, which means I was 22. We were in the pub having a drink and a mate, Sean, came up and asked what was the occasion. Paul said, "It's my birthday," and Sean asked how old. When Paul replied "29" Sean said, "Yeah right! How old really?" Paul was not amused of course, but anyway, he always looked older because of him going bald. Anyway, I asked Sean how old he thought I was. He was convinced I was "at least 27" which probably means "at least 30".
However, for the last 5 years or so I appear to have arrested and am now going backwards somehow. This was confirmed at the weekend when talking to Eddie (our birthdays are just a couple of days apart) and he thought I would be about 27. I have nary a wrinkle to be seen as yet (unless I really screw my face up) although if anything I seem to be more prone to spots than I was as a teenager (held in check with quantities of Lush washing salts).
So what is going on? Am I going backwards? Is there some hideous toothless portrait of me stuck in an attic somewhere? And if this trend continues, how long will it be until I start getting asked for ID when buying alcohol?
- Currently feeling:
working
